ABSTRACT_OBSTRUCTiON's Xanga

Monday, August 16, 2004

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 02:57:04 GMT

Lalalalala.

Eat my shit. =D

Have a marvelous day!

PSSST! I almost forgot!

http://x.x-victim.net -- personal/journal
http://shattered.sanitys-requiem.net -- writing
http://to-the-music.net/shattered -- Atreyu fanlisting

Monday, July 26, 2004

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 04:33:48 GMT

Countdown to Ozzfest...

FOUR FUCKING DAYS.

July 29, 2004.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 22:08:20 GMT

Things are okay. I suppose I will update randomly every once in a while.

I love you, Aaron.

Again, if you want to keep up with my random... um... crap... ask me.

Email : abstract_obstruction@yahoo.com
AIM : xldy DEATHstrike

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 00:29:12 GMT

Got a new Xanga username like I said below.

If you want to know what's going on with me for some weird reason, ask me for it and I'll give it to you if I like you.

PLEASE DO NOT ADD ME TO YOUR SITES I READ LIST IF I TELL YOU THE USERNAME. I want to keep this new username as down low as possible.

To ask...

abstract_obstruction@yahoo.com
or
AIM: x LDYDEATHSTRIKE

Take care everyone, and this may be farewell.

I might come back just to update every once in a while, I might not. Most likely not. I don't want to waste so much time taking care of two fucking retard Xangas.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 22:33:24 GMT

There's no point left in living when everything is slipping away from me like trying to hold sand in a fist.

The only escape is to begin to bleed again.

I think I need a new Xanga, and this time I won't tell anybody who remotely knows me except for a select few... like Katherine & Nathan & all those marvelous people.

I miss you all so much
On the verge of tears as I
Recall each and every single
Memory.
The way we laughed,
Talked, and farted.
To relive all those days...

On a happier note...

Just fuck it all, you know? There's no point in living anymore if I just lie like this to everyone.

I'll take off my mask now to show my true face to everyone who hasn't seen it. Ugly, yes, but it's me this time. I'm not going to fuck around anymore with some happy smiley crap. I will kill you this time.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 03:55:31 GMT

Dad's leaving for Asia tomorrow.

Sunday, I'm leaving for fucking 4H camp. I don't want to go anymore...

I received the letter for it in the mail yesterday... when I was sorting through the mail and then it has so much stuff to do with friends. What friends do I have at 4H? I don't know anybody except two people, Aaron Teagle and Daniel Clarke, both who couldn't care less about me.
So basically camp for me will be sit in my tent, bored, missing Nathan<3 and all the backpacking people, missing Chery, missing Katherine<3, writing in my notebook that will not last me the whole trip so I have to get another one. Wheee... what fun that is going to be... paying $100 dollars to do nothing.

I don't like meeting new people... socializing just is not my thing and I would probably die before I got through a decent conversation without making a fool of myself. I hate talking to people unless I feel absolutely comfortable with them, which means people I can fart around and burp around and just not be afraid of myself.

If it weren't for 4H, I could probably go on the Lost (fucking) Coast backpacking trip, damnit!

Fuck 4H camp. I don't want to go.

Hmm... I wonder if I could bring my CD player though... it wasn't on the restricted list...

On a happier note...

I saw the Notebook today... it didn't quite follow the book, but it was good nonetheless. I haven't cried for a movie since I watched Pearl Harbor, so that was an interesting surprise.

Nathan couldn't go though, which sucked... it would have made the movie better in a lot of ways. *cough*

Katherine... SANDWICHES!

Boris... Thongs for the Caveman.

Robyn... I won't go in!

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Twister called me =) Well, actually he was just returning my call, but nobody ever returns my calls, which is pretty cool of him. It was nice listening to my little baby buddy talk. He's such a cutie. I love Twister, hehe.

I miss Nathan, goddammit. Screw fucking 4H.

I feel really bad because I always have to eat people's money when I use their cellphones. I need one.

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Fixed my layout a bit.

I just don't want to get up off my ass anymore unless it's going to see one of the closest groups of friends I ever had, also known as the Hiking Club. Led by Sunshine and Otter, the members are me, Nathan, Katherine, Robyn, Tristan, Craig, Manhoe (Justin), Caveman (Boris), Cassie, Devin, Loren, Alina, and Tatyana. I love you all.

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Thursday, July 08, 2004

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 15:19:15 GMT

Back... (from Hawaii)

They lost my fucking luggage with all the clothes that I wear on a daily basis including 3 of my favorite shirts/tanks & all my eyeliners and lip sticks!!!!

*screams*

But then... in Hawaii I got to get two of Atreyu's CDs. Not just one, but TWO so that makes up for it.

And... it makes up for it because I got the FUCKING CURSE andSuicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses, but that one's just a bit old.

I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!! I GOT THE CURSE!!!!

Hehe ^^

A little out of control there... but...

I GOT THE CURSE!!!! =)

Marvelous, marvelous, marvelous CD.

I also read the Notebook. Good book, sad and sweet, but good. Want to see the movie with me anyone?

And they lost all my, my presents for people and my N64 and my shooooeees and my... my... my BAG with all my PINS on them.

PSST.
It's my mom's birthday.

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Wish I could be beautiful like you,
Don't you hate it when you look at me and see
That I shame something so damn pretty.

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MY COMPUTER MUST FUCKING DIE. IT ATE MY DAMN FAVORITE FUCKING THE CURSE CD.

DIE YOU COMPUTER DIE.

On second thought, maybe don't die, you're my only escape...

BUT GIVE ME BACK MY FUCKING CD UNDAMAGED OR I WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO KILL YOU.

Anyways... something happier...

Every time I watch Pearl Harbor, I cry or I almost start crying... it's so sad... and now that I've seen the actual place, it really hits me that it really happened and so many people suffered from it. It's just like 9/11 and it makes you think... it could happen to you because it's happened before. So many people died, and most were young and still had so much to live for and so long to live, but their lives were cut short just because of one event. Families were broken, brothers, husbands, wives, sisters, daughters, sons, mothers, fathers, and loved ones were lost. It really makes you think a lot... it may not seem like such a big deal, but to me, it just dawns a whole new meaning...

If you ever get the chance to go see Pearl Harbor and see the USS Arizona Memorial, do it. It is so beautiful and sad. Just think about it, so many lives were entombed inside the Arizona, and are still there. In the memorial, there's a gigantic wall of who lost their lives and if you look carefully and look for a long time, there are brothers who died together. There's also a smaller block where men were laid to rest with their seamates in the Arizona.

Then after you see the memorial, watch Pearl Harbor. I know I wasn't born even remotely close to that date, because it was 63 years ago, but it hurts my heart. It just hurts to watch people die like that, and it's not funny because what if you were there? What if you got torn apart mentally and maybe physically because of just a couple of hours in one day? What if you saw people you loved torn apart by those couple of hours?

Just think about it...

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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 17:26:20 GMT

Leaving for Hawaii today! Wahoo...!

Excited, but not excited, you know?

I'd much rather stay home and hang out with friends and not get a tan. But then, Hawaii is fun =)

I'm going to miss you, baby. I love you, Nart.

Wheeee! Katheringgggg =)

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Did I say I love you, Nathan?

And I miss you?

Did I say I love you, Katherine?

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Monday, June 28, 2004

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 21:55:55 GMT

Leaving for Hawaii tomorrow!

Yay and noyay!

Katherine & Nart-less for a little over a week. Poopie ~___~

Monday, June 28, 2004

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 01:39:26 GMT

~~I think he's coming back either today or tomorrow! Whootwhoot! No being a loser for me anymore.~~

I love KATHERINE CHIN. Click. My lesbian girlfriend ;]

I miss it all.
If I could bring it back for just one more day I would. No doubt about it.

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WHOOT WHOOT FOR MEEEE =)

KATHERINE ;] ;] ;] Something I have to tell you.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh! *bouncebounce*